Poetry Time

original image found here

It's been a while since I last posted a poem, so here's a new one.

Who am I?

Who is this girl in front of me?

Why does she look like that?
Why do I look like that?
So many questions,

so many stones unturned.

Why am I here?
Why do I exist?

Why am I not perfect?
Why am I like this?

Self love, that is what they tell me,

but how could I love myself if I cannot accept myself.

Imperfections and abnormalities,

these are the only things that I see in me.

Not beauty, not grace and this is no modesty.

I hate myself,

I hate looking at myself,

I hate what has become of myself.

Acceptance, that is the key,

The key to seeing what is really inside of me.

They love me, people do love me,

whatever it is that they see in me

is what I should also see.

Gratefulness, for every blessing that I received,

be thankful for the people around me,

be thankful for the gifts God has given me,

be thankful for each breath that comes out of me,

being thankful for the life He has given me.

You don't have to be religious to have faith,

I have doubts myself and I often question things

but being grateful for existing

and thanking Him for giving me life

is more than enough reason to have faith.

I was down, in misery, in doubt

but people did not give up on me,

I gave up on me.

But I choose to stand up, right my wrongs and apologize

for these demons inside me should not conquer me

they should not anchor me down,

they should be reminders that I am bigger than them

that I can conquer them.